Feeling a bit better today. Not close to 100%, but better than last night. Think I’ll try to go to bed early tonight. Seems like the less time I spend alone with my restless mind, the better. For now, I just thought I’d post this poem that I wrote a million years ago, when I [...]

Get your mind out of the gutter — I’m talking about writing a post here. I’ve got all these feelings and thoughts running through me right now and I really need to get them all out before they’re gone because usually when I feel this way I push them away as fast as I can [...]

It’s almost 6 pm on Friday. I took two more Zopiclone (10 mg) last night after my last post and put on Finding Nemo, hoping to fall asleep on the couch to a movie that wouldn’t require me paying much attention. The last thing I remember  is the part where Nemo goes to the dropoff [...]

*Warning*  This post is very self-pitying. Don’t say I didn’t warn you. It’s been about  22 hours since my last post. I managed to catch a one-hour power  nap exactly an hour before I had to start work. Other than that I didn’t sleep at all, although I did manage to make the day productive. [...]

…but instead I’m sitting out on my balcony having a cigarette and writing this at 4:30 in the morning. So much for the much beloved sleeping pills. I took my regular dose (which has been upped from 7.5 mg to 10 mg) and… nothing. A few yawns, but nothing like the immediate feeling of sleep [...]

I didn’t realize how long it had been since I’d updated the blog until a friend told me on Friday that it’s been almost three weeks and she was tired of seeing “One pill, two pill, three pill, four” every time she checks to see if I’ve updated it. The thing is, the past few [...]