Yesterday was a really, really bad day. I feel like I’ve been writing that more and more lately. I haven’t done the blood test yet to see if the lithium levels are okay, but I’m pretty sure I need to be on a higher dose. Lithium’s claim to fame is that it controls suicidal thoughts. [...]

On Saturday, I cleaned my entire apartment – while I was awake and fully aware of what I was doing. On Saturday night, I sleep-shopped. The best I can figure is that since the apartment was completely clean, I didn’t have anything else to do, so I shopped instead. That’s right, I online shopped for two upcoming [...]

Last night I reached a new low… in terms of my “sleepwalking,” that is. I saw Dr. A. yesterday (and Naomi — more on that later), and he gave me Seroquel and Immovane to sleep. Immovane for the nights I really needed it. Well, after having a lovely dinner with a few close friends, I [...]

Well, I made it through the weekend… but just barely. The wedding was a lot of fun, up to a point. That point being the part of the night where I drank too much and stopped remembering what happened. All I know is I smoked one cigarette (managed to stop after that though, yay me [...]

Well it’s only day two of quitting smoking, but I’m not really missing it yet. Granted, I haven’t put myself in a situation where I’ll really need one, like when I’m out drinking. I was supposed to go out tonight but I cancelled last minute as I’m feeling quite low and didn’t want to be [...]

And I’m not talking about milkshakes. No, I’m back on Loxapine to help me sleep and it’s making me shakier than ever. I had a last-minute appointment with Dr. A last week to get a prescription for sleeping pills since I was about to run out and knew I wouldn’t be able to sleep without [...]