I’ve been dreading writing this post. Usually when I’m away from the blog for a long time, it’s because things are either really bad or relatively normal. In this case, being away since September, it’s the latter, thank goodness. Since starting the new job, and getting back into a proper sleep pattern without sleeping pills, […]

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March 31st, 2014 by "Alice"

The Lucky Ones

Today I can’t help but feel that I’m one of the lucky ones. One of the lucky few that manages to see through the fog of depression before it’s too late. Who lives to tell the tale. Who finds a way to live with, and even sometimes draw strength from, an illness that takes far […]

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February 2nd, 2013 by "Alice"

Single. Unemployed. Bipolar.

I know, I said I’d be back soon and I wasn’t. Life has thrown me yet another curveball. I was laid off — again. That’s right, I lost my job for the third time in four years. I was doing pretty well about all of it until today, the second day of unemployment. It’s not […]

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October 13th, 2012 by "Alice"

I’m still here

Just a really quick post to let you all know that I’m still alive. I’ve gotten a few emails in the past couple of months from readers concerned that I haven’t posted since March. First of all, thank you for your concern. Sometimes I forget that this blog is out there for anyone to see. […]

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August 6th, 2012 by "Alice"

Bell “Let’s Talk” day, and a general update

I’ve been trying to find the energy to write a post for a long time. Seems reasonable to finally do so on Bell Let’s Talk day. The goal of Let’s Talk is to end the stigma of mental illness by getting people to realize that they don’t have to hide their illnesses. Did you know […]

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February 8th, 2012 by "Alice"

It’s probably a whole whack of things that have gotten me to this point. A few shitty days at work. A couple nights with far too much to drink. Weight gain. Boy problems. Mum and Dad not being around. Having slowly pushed my friends away. Feeling like everything is slipping away. I’m sitting here in […]

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October 18th, 2011 by "Alice"

More bullshit

I had a pretty shit day at work today. It started on the weekend when I had a fever and sore throat — but not a regular sore throat, it was like there was a huge lump in my throat and it literally stopped me from eating and drinking for the second half of the […]

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October 11th, 2011 by "Alice"

Just a bad day.

Had a really bad day today. It started with an hour of trying to have a doctor take my friggin blood to check that all the freakin meds in my system and to see how fucked my thyroid has gotten in the last three months. All signs point to pretty fucked. We’ll see what the […]

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August 11th, 2011 by "Alice"

Back down the rabbit hole…

And here we are again. Once again my world is crashing down around me and I am powerless to stop it. A month ago, the guy I was seeing abruptly told me he just wanted to be friends, while he “figures things out” with his life. Fine. I thought we could actually be friends, but […]

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July 31st, 2011 by "Alice"

Single brown female seeks… sleep.

The past week has been a bit up and down. The other night — Thursday or Friday — I couldn’t sleep and was suddenly overcome with irritability. I thrashed around in my bed for a while before getting up and pacing the apartment. I thought about writing something here, but I couldn’t focus enough. What […]

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June 26th, 2011 by "Alice"