“It’s not hypomania, it’s your anti-psychotic.” There’s a sentence I never thought I’d hear come from Dr. A’s lips, but it was one I heard at our appointment today. So the anti-psychotic, which by definition is meant to curb hypomania, is causing all the agitation I’ve been feeling lately. The not being able to sit [...]

It’s been about two weeks since the switch from Zopiclone to Flurazepam to help me sleep. As I mentioned in the previous post, Flurazepam did start to work… a little. Then it just stopped. I was lucky that I had a few leftover Zopiclone to get me through those nights, but for the past week [...]

The past couple of weeks have been a bit of a blur, so please excuse my absence from the blog. After the  suicidal thoughts overwhelmed my mind, I took some time off work. On my last day, the Friday after it all happened, I was bouncing along in the office, not fully aware of my [...]

I didn’t realize how long it had been since I’d updated the blog until a friend told me on Friday that it’s been almost three weeks and she was tired of seeing “One pill, two pill, three pill, four” every time she checks to see if I’ve updated it. The thing is, the past few [...]

I haven’t really been watching the news lately. Actually, it’s been a long time since I’ve watched the news. This evening, when I got home from work, all I wanted to do was fall onto the couch and veg in front of the TV. But the sitcom reruns weren’t doing it for me, so I [...]

Yesterday I had an interesting email conversation with a friend. I had been discussing the blog post on side effects, and how my doctors didn’t tell me about so many of them, and she said, It’s true, they don’t really tell you about the side effects of medications… especially if you mix it with alcohol! [...]

When people hear about someone being manic-depressive, the first thought seems to be towards the mania end of the spectrum. The depression is easier to understand – we’ve all been there in some form, right? You can make a reasonable guess as to how manic-depressives behave when they’re depressed. People have a more difficult time [...]

Wow, talk about rapid cycling. Yesterday I was feeling pretty good. I had been sleeping well all week and had even been early for work every day. Work was going well, and I hadn’t been reamed out for sleeping in that day, which was top of my list of worries. Then, for no apparent reason, [...]

For the second time in two weeks my illness has affected my work. The last time I let this happen was in fourth year of university when I slept through a final exam. Luckily I had a friend who helped me get out of that one – not only that, he helped me get all [...]

Staring at a blank screen. I feel like I’m back in university trying to write an essay. I want to be able to post in this blog every day, or at least as close to every day as I can. But today’s been… different. After my last post last night (or early this morning), I [...]