Well, a lot happened last week, which is why I didn’t have time to update this or call anyone. I went from almost manic on Monday to hopelessly depressed on Friday. After a relaxing weekend at my parents’, without my phone, which I left at CAMH by accident, I came back refreshed and feeling pretty [...]
Well, I’ve been avoiding writing here for a few reasons — the main reason being a fear of putting my thoughts into concrete words. Because my thoughts have been far from positive these past few weeks. Nothing has really changed, except that I’m off work now so I have more time to sleep (or to [...]
In the past two and a half weeks (or so), I’ve reached new lows. That’s why I haven’t been writing here — I haven’t had the energy. I’ve been sleeping 12 or 14 hours a day, getting out of bed only because I have to work. It’s making me worried about what’s going to happen [...]
Yesterday was a really, really bad day. I feel like I’ve been writing that more and more lately. I haven’t done the blood test yet to see if the lithium levels are okay, but I’m pretty sure I need to be on a higher dose. Lithium’s claim to fame is that it controls suicidal thoughts. [...]
On Saturday, I cleaned my entire apartment – while I was awake and fully aware of what I was doing. On Saturday night, I sleep-shopped. The best I can figure is that since the apartment was completely clean, I didn’t have anything else to do, so I shopped instead. That’s right, I online shopped for two upcoming [...]
“It’s not hypomania, it’s your anti-psychotic.” There’s a sentence I never thought I’d hear come from Dr. A’s lips, but it was one I heard at our appointment today. So the anti-psychotic, which by definition is meant to curb hypomania, is causing all the agitation I’ve been feeling lately. The not being able to sit [...]
The past couple of weeks have been a bit of a blur, so please excuse my absence from the blog. After the suicidal thoughts overwhelmed my mind, I took some time off work. On my last day, the Friday after it all happened, I was bouncing along in the office, not fully aware of my [...]