I’ve been dreading writing this post. Usually when I’m away from the blog for a long time, it’s because things are either really bad or relatively normal. In this case, being away since September, it’s the latter, thank goodness. Since starting the new job, and getting back into a proper sleep pattern without sleeping pills, […]

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March 31st, 2014 by "Alice"

Parentheses overload

Well, I’ve been avoiding writing here for a few reasons — the main reason being a fear of putting my thoughts into concrete words. Because my thoughts have been far from positive these past few weeks. Nothing has really changed, except that I’m off work now so I have more time to sleep (or to […]

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November 27th, 2010 by "Alice"

Looking for — relative — peace

“It’s not hypomania, it’s your anti-psychotic.” There’s a sentence I never thought I’d hear come from Dr. A’s lips, but it was one I heard at our appointment today. So the anti-psychotic, which by definition is meant to curb hypomania, is causing all the agitation I’ve been feeling lately. The not being able to sit […]

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July 8th, 2010 by "Alice"

A post from behind the mask

I didn’t realize how long it had been since I’d updated the blog until a friend told me on Friday that it’s been almost three weeks and she was tired of seeing “One pill, two pill, three pill, four” every time she checks to see if I’ve updated it. The thing is, the past few […]

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May 9th, 2010 by "Alice"

One pill, two pill, three pill, four

I’ve officially become an old lady…. Today I bought one of those pill containers, you know, the ones that have the days of the week and you can store all your pills for each day. Except that now I’m on so many pills that I actually had to buy on that has a separate day […]

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April 15th, 2010 by "Alice"

Searching for the light switch

“If the docs keep waving their arms around at random, eventually they flick on the light switch by mistake.” This is a line from a book I just finished reading — Generosity: An Enhancement, by Richard Powers. It’s about a woman who comes from a war-torn country to study in a slightly futuristic version of […]

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April 14th, 2010 by "Alice"

Up next: Another change in meds

Well, it’s been a few days since I’ve posted anything, mostly because I haven’t really had anything to say, but also because I haven’t had the energy. I’ve been sleeping so much the past few days; it’s all I can do to pull myself out of bed to log in for work. I’m not sure […]

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February 23rd, 2010 by "Alice"

Proposing changes to DSM-IV

I haven’t really been watching the news lately. Actually, it’s been a long time since I’ve watched the news. This evening, when I got home from work, all I wanted to do was fall onto the couch and veg in front of the TV. But the sitcom reruns weren’t doing it for me, so I […]

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February 11th, 2010 by "Alice"

Changing meds, changing variables

Last night I went out with a bunch of friends to celebrate my birthday. I got quite inebriated, but luckily I had a good friend with me the whole night who made sure I kept drinking water so my hangover wouldn’t be too bad today. Other than being tired, I actually feel alright. We’ll see […]

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February 11th, 2010 by "Alice"

Just another day in Bipolarland

Last night I went to bed with the firm belief that today would be a better day. I was determined to make it so. I had a meeting with my freelancers’ group in the afternoon and a date with Mr. Second Friday (we’ll continue to call him Mike). I got up around 10, and the […]

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February 1st, 2010 by "Alice"