Single brown female seeks… sleep.

The past week has been a bit up and down. The other night — Thursday or Friday — I couldn’t sleep and was suddenly overcome with irritability. I thrashed around in my bed for a while before getting up and pacing the apartment. I thought about writing something here, but I couldn’t focus enough. What […]

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June 26th, 2011 by "Alice"

Week 2 ends and Week 3 begins

Well, a lot happened last week, which is why I didn’t have time to update this or call anyone. I went from almost manic on Monday to hopelessly depressed on Friday. After a relaxing weekend at my parents’, without my phone, which I left at CAMH by accident, I came back refreshed and feeling pretty […]

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January 31st, 2011 by "Alice"

Week one begins

So, I don’t remember writing that post. I was taking Lorazepam, which I haven’t taken in a long time, to help with the Seroquel to sleep. And now I realized that I don’t remember much of the weekend. Which sucks, cause I was supposed to be enjoying my freedom. Anyway, Mum and Dad brought me […]

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January 17th, 2011 by "Alice"

AIM program at CAMH

So a lot has happened since I last wrote.  After making the decision to go into the in-patient program (called AIM), it was a lot of hurry up and wait. Barbara told me that I have to go in for four weeks while Dr. A told me it was more flexible. I finally got a […]

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January 15th, 2011 by "Alice"

Sleep, sleep, smoke, sleep.

Well, my sleeping habits have taken a 180 degree turn. Since Sunday, I haven’t gotten out of bed earlier than 5 pm. I’ve been trying to sleep earlier in the evening, but even with the Seroquel, I can’t fall asleep before 2 am. The last three nights it’s taken me between two and four times […]

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December 2nd, 2010 by "Alice"

Parentheses overload

Well, I’ve been avoiding writing here for a few reasons — the main reason being a fear of putting my thoughts into concrete words. Because my thoughts have been far from positive these past few weeks. Nothing has really changed, except that I’m off work now so I have more time to sleep (or to […]

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November 27th, 2010 by "Alice"

Running out

In the past two and a half weeks (or so), I’ve reached new lows. That’s why I haven’t been writing here — I haven’t had the energy. I’ve been sleeping 12 or 14 hours a day, getting out of bed only because I have to work. It’s making me worried about what’s going to happen […]

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November 10th, 2010 by "Alice"

Blah blah blah… Life sucks… Blah blah blah

Yesterday was a really, really bad day. I feel like I’ve been writing that more and more lately. I haven’t done the blood test yet to see if the lithium levels are okay, but I’m pretty sure I need to be on a higher dose. Lithium’s claim to fame is that it controls suicidal thoughts. […]

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September 15th, 2010 by "Alice"

I spend too much money when I sleep

On Saturday, I cleaned my entire apartment — while I was awake and fully aware of what I was doing. On Saturday night, I sleep-shopped. The best I can figure is that since the apartment was completely clean, I didn’t have anything else to do, so I shopped instead. That’s right, I online shopped for two upcoming […]

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September 13th, 2010 by "Alice"

Zombie-sleep

I just took a couple of Zoplicones, so please excuse if this post is all over the place. Or if there are spelling mistakes! I hate being mid-project. I decided to repaint my patio furniture, only to find out that one spray can covers only one chair (I feel like I’ve written this already, so […]

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August 26th, 2010 by "Alice"